Gap

As I was on my way to visit a friend, walking doing the streets of south London as i do most of the time now when I don't feel like paying for the bus or putting petrol in my boyfriends car to save a quid here and there. I saw the billboard that had prime minister Gordon Brown's face with a cheeky grin which said "I increased the gap between rich and poor, vote for me"...I didn't know when I actually started laughing, pointing at the bill board and crying at the same time right there on the street,(hell am penniless, why not add insanity to that too right)and as most people in London do,they walked right past me with funny looks on their faces, and not one asking or checking to see if I was okay! what made me laugh was how true that statement was,not in terms of it being Gordon brown's fault ( I couldn't care less whose fault it is, as it doesn't change the situation) but more to do with how now that credit is harder to come by it is clearer to see those who had real money and those who actually just had credit and called it having money!...Even though I wasn't one who relied on credit that much but not having a job for sooo long...has ensured that I am penniless. I mean I am poor!...I would fall under the category of poor, really really poor. I have a student loan outstanding, a bank loan, a couple of overdrafts, and various unpaid bills. My maths is bad but even I understand that my income is of no relevance to my outgoing....which I cant even get credit to sort out!...because there is no means to pay back what ever credit I take out!. I can't get the government to help me with training as I don't fall under the category of youth or the training I'm seeking help with they do not sponsor and all the education and training the job centre plus has to offer does not apply to me...as I am actually educated...
So Wow, that statement is soooo true the gap has increased so badly that I do hope those who find themselves in the same category as I'm in come out of it un-scarred for life. if it was not for already having cloths, a roof over head and living in England with the government doing its little bit and having a boyfriend who is supportive and understanding I do not believe that I would still have my sanity!!!
Anyway I have to go now...

Highlight

Well lets see what has happened since my last post!....nothing much to be honest, not having a job means that you avoiding going out too much as you do not want to spend the little you have on things such as unnecessary transportation, or junk food e.t.c. so your days stretch out longer, you find that you browse the net applying for jobs to the point that your eyes ache and when you get a bill you hope that there are discrepancies with the bill so that you can get some action out of arguing with the customers service department and sometimes get some satisfaction from winning the argument!...that would probably be my highlight of my day!...
However the other day I got a phone call from a lady, from a company who had selected me for a trainee post within a financial firm. Initially when the call came through I was delighted to learn that my skills matched that of what they required to put my application forward but as the conversation or rather as I progressed with the phone I soon realised that it entailed money!...Now I have noticed that calls like these are becoming more prominent lately...where a caller tells you that they are a recruiting agent and then a few minutes later they are telling you that you have to pay some stupid amount of £££ (money) for some kind of training. I was pissed off!!!...I mean, if I had a buck load of cash would I be sitting on my arse all day & night in front of a computer applying for jobs, or chasing some woman down the street to find out how I can get a job where she works, or biting my pride and walking into retail outlets asking about vacancies??? when I could be some where well out of London on holiday sipping on Rum and Pineapple juice. I NEED MONEY!!!...NOT HAVE MONEY!!!...
IT pissed me off so bad that I was in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Then I realised that at the end of the day I suppose that they are only doing their jobs...everyone is just trying to survive one way or the other I suppose, companies and individuals respectively. However I have made up my mind to tell the next person who calls me talking about a job for me getting my hopes up and then crashing them down by asking me to bring some ridiculous amount of money that ...if money grows on trees they should show me the tree if not then maybe they should pay for me or give me the job...otherwise they should leave me the HELL alone!!!

anyway I have to go now....

Life in jobless hell

It has been a year since I last worked and as I sit here today in my boyfriends flat somewhere in south London, watching a recording of the master chef final and thinking wow someone chased their dreams and achieved it. I think to myself wow, where did it all go wrong, how did I go from studying at University, to working in Canary wharf, getting a project mgt qualification, thinking that I was on my way...(the big leagues) to THIS!!!...Absolute joblessness, empty bank account and total boredom...WHAT WENT WRONG?
Constantly applying for jobs only to get rejected...going to agencies, getting told don't worry...or some actually refusing to register you (because you've been out of work for more than 6 months)..what a bunch of rubbish...
Things are so bad that i even apply to super markets, care jobs and STILL don't have a job...I beginning to think that there is some kind of conspiracy...going on, when employers see my name ( it is a long and some what complicated last name, I must admit...oh the years at school of every teacher getting tongue tied when they have to take the register and comes across my name for the very first time...oh the good times!) they just don't seem interested. Some tell you that you are over qualified, some tell u you are under qualified, there just seems to be no winning for me!
I cannot believe my ears when on TV they say "things are picking up, unemployment rate is falling" 'Utter nonsense' from my point of view anyway....and those at the voluntary place I was volunteering at, some of which have been made redundant twice within the space of a year.

Tell me how things are getting better?...cos I need to know.